What the hell is the matter?

I feel like crying but the tears won't fall. I can literally feel them in the wells of my eyes but the damn things won't spill over. I open my mouth to scream, but the muscles just get mixed up. I have thousands of thoughts transversing through my mind-leaving me feeling mixed up. I feel empty. I feel bare. I feel broken. I want to laugh, you know genuinely until my belly aches which causes me to laugh harder. I want to be able to love again. I want to be able to live.